Thursday, December 23, 2010
MAJOR frustration!!
So as many of ya'll probably know I have been working my ASS off (no pun intended) trying to lose weight. I have been on a strict diet of 1200 calories a day and have a personal trainer who I'm pretty sure is trying to kill me through exercise. By the advice of my trainer and doctor I got rid of my scale (well kind of...I had my sister hide it) so I wouldn't be frustrated and give up. The problem is that my thyroid condition is working so hard against me that despite doing anything and everything to lose weight I have actually GAINED. I know this because I had a doctors appointment today and he assured me that I should not give up and keep doing what I'm doing because it is actually slowing down the weight gain. I feel like if I stopped I would gain like 10 lbs a week. Since I started my diet I have put on 15 lbs...all of which are in my belly (as usual). It's so frustrating. My reason for wanting to lose weight is that my fat is not distributed in a flattering way on my body. There are curvy girls who are large all over and look great. But my belly is so disproportionately large compared to the rest of my body that I just look really awkward. And lately I have been having bad back pain as well. I used to always sleep on my stomach but now it just feels too weird (my belly folds over itself). So basically I'm just venting right now because I'm sure there are people out there who can relate to this. It's so hard working so diligently to lose weight and then finding out you actually have been gaining.Heres a pic I took recently....totally accidentally (I thought I was recording a video)
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I've had the exact same problem myself recently. Been working hard, and getting in better shape, but despite that I've fattened up a bit, and some of my shirts are starting to show my tummy.
ReplyDeleteI understand very well. Just keep working hard and youll start to lose, I'll do the same, and until that time, well I at least really enjoy your cute big belly, even though I know its not your favorite thing in the world, it has its own appeal.
Don't give up. As much as I would like to see you get fatter, you dont want to lose control of yourself. Thank of your poor wardrobe. YOu are a strong person, I can tell from the way you speak, just keep working it out.
Thank you so much. That means a lot to me.
ReplyDeletewouldnt you be happier just living your life by not killing yourself working out, or worring every single second about what you eat, and just doing what you want. you only have one life on this earth i would think you would just want to enjoy it
ReplyDeleteI DO want to enjoy it and thats why I want to try to lose some weight. I've been having back problems and am not as able to do a lot of the physical activities I'd like to do (for example I can't run for extended periods of time and I find myself getting more out of breath when I go hiking and stuff). I have a really tiny frame so the extra weight is significantly harder to carry. Plus I enjoy being healthy. It makes me feel better.
ReplyDeleteoh i understand now. the extra weight is holding you back from things you enjoy. i wish you the best with your weight loss
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