VERY important- PLEASE WATCH

Again, not directed at everyone, but ya'll should know who you are.

MAJOR frustration!!

So as many of ya'll probably know I have been working my ASS off (no pun intended) trying to lose weight. I have been on a strict diet of 1200 calories a day and have a personal trainer who I'm pretty sure is trying to kill me through exercise. By the advice of my trainer and doctor I got rid of my scale (well kind of...I had my sister hide it) so I wouldn't be frustrated and give up. The problem is that my thyroid condition is working so hard against me that despite doing anything and everything to lose weight I have actually GAINED. I know this because I had a doctors appointment today and he assured me that I should not give up and keep doing what I'm doing because it is actually slowing down the weight gain. I feel like if I stopped I would gain like 10 lbs a week. Since I started my diet I have put on 15 lbs...all of which are in my belly (as usual). It's so frustrating. My reason for wanting to lose weight is that my fat is not distributed in a flattering way on my body. There are curvy girls who are large all over and look great. But my belly is so disproportionately large compared to the rest of my body that I just look really awkward. And lately I have been having bad back pain as well. I used to always sleep on my stomach but now it just feels too weird (my belly folds over itself). So basically I'm just venting right now because I'm sure there are people out there who can relate to this. It's so hard working so diligently to lose weight and then finding out you actually have been gaining.Heres a pic I took recently....totally accidentally (I thought I was recording a video)